Monday, October 29, 2007

Sick Boy

Josiah started coughing on Friday evening and woke up on Saturday very congested. He continued to sneeze and cough, with runny boogs all weekend. Sunday night seemed to be the worst of it, so we kept him home today. We always feel so helpless when they are sick like this. Shoot even a pacifier can't pacify, because he can't breath and suck at the same time. We put him to bed last night and he went right down. Then about an hour later I came into the kitchen and heard a pathetic little cry...no idea how long he had been crying because it was so quiet, but I got him up and we snuggled on the couch for a little while until he started feeling better and started playing. We let him play for a little while and Dan took him back into bed. Josiah is a major manipulation stage right now. He won't go down for a nap or to bed at night for me. He just stands right back up and starts jumping and crying. For Dan he goes right back down. And the thing is, I don't even stay in there with him or get him back up when he is acting that way. I just let him cry it out and cry until he gives up and goes to sleep. So I don't know why he keeps doing this..except that he knows that at some point I will probably cave. Well he has another thing coming. The only reason I went and got him last night was because he sounded awful and could hardly breathe. So I got him up and we got out the vaporizor and gave him some tylenol. After Dan put him back to bed at about 10:00pm, he slept until 9:30am this morning. So at least he got a good nights sleep.

I guess he ate a ton for breakfast this morning and kept asking for more. Dan said he finally cut him off because he was afraid he would get sick. So he must be feeling better. Eating is always a good sign with him.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Spongebob Power Toothbrush

Ok, so the image is very small, but last weekend I bought a spongebob power toothbrush because Josiah showed great interest in our powered toothbrushes and we weren't having alot of luck getting him to open his mouth consistantly. Ever since I bought his new tooth brush, not only does he open his mouth without a struggle everytime, but we are now in the habit of brushing every morning and night. More than I can say for myself sometimes. I should just bring my toothbrush down with his and then I could brush mine at the same time :) At any rate, I highly recommend the power toothbrush for toddlers who refuse to open their mouths....they are just more fun!!! He can even get in there and do a little more brushing himself (bonus)!!!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Potty Training

Dan and I have decided to take a proactive role with potty training. I have been told by some that boys just can't be potty trained until they are 3 1/2 (why 3 1/2, I have no idea), but I just can't imagine having to buy diapers for another 2 years. And having them poop in their diapers at that age just seems weird. I know that this topic is one of great contraversy. But as a parent we do have to pick sides. And we believe that we can potty train him before he's 3.

Our plan for right now: Every morning we get him up, take him to the bathroom to brush teeth and have him try to "Go Pee" (as Josiah says). Then when we get home, take him and have him try to "Go Pee" and put one of those pullups on him for the evening (so one a day for now), in the hopes that the pullups changing powers will make him realize he is going pee or whatever they do :) Then before bath, have him "Go Pee" again. As of right now, we are not going to enlist our day care, because she is of the mind set that it can't be done and shouldn't even be tried until they are 3 1/2. So we are going to do this on our own, until we start to see results. I have told our day care about it so that if Josiah says "Go Pee" she will know what he is talking about and eventually start taking him to go.

We have not done any research on this topic, we are just going with our gut instinct right now. So we will see how this goes. Any advice from any of you seasoned parents ;)

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

A little more busy

The person I am filling in for, is officially on maternity leave. She left work on Friday at 9:30am and won't be back until January '08. She had a healthy baby girl on Sunday...so cute. A co-worker and I went to see them last night. Lily Sofia (her grandmother's names). Both the baby and mom are doing very well and are making their way home today.

So Monday was my first day of taking the reins all on my own. And surprisingly, it was very busy. Today was very busy, up until a few minutes ago when I accomplished all of my tasks :) there are a few little things to work on, but I need to make them stretch until the end of the day!! A perfect time to do a quick post.

Josiah has been an angel lately. Well as much as an almost 2 year old can be. Fewer tantrums and time outs work like a charm right now. He cries through his timeout, but with some advice from friends, we have learned to ignore him when he is in time out...good advice. He can hear the dinger ring when the timeout is over and he is instantly a new kid. We are starting to use it for the times when he demands things from us. For example; he says the word "Dadoo" and if you don't stand up and walk to the cupboard where he knows they are kept, he starts screaming and crying if we tell him to be patient. We tell him to say please, or ask him what he is supposed to say. If he continues, onto the timeout bench he goes for 1 minute. When he turns two, it will be 2 minutes. For now he stays there and cries with big crocodile tears. But as soon as the dinger rings, he stands up and says please. Bizarre, actually! But wonderful. We will continue to use this method as long as it works...and hopefully that is for a long time!!!

I'll have to fill you in on more Josiah stuff tomorrow ;)

Friday, October 19, 2007

A New Day

Things are better today. I think the tornado warning last night, which sent all of us down to our basement at 10:00PM, may have put some things into perspective. I have also been praying more and more and the one thing that keeps coming up: I need to start reading my Bible. I haven't even opened it in months, maybe years actually. So last night I opened up to a random place (well random to me, but I am sure God had a direct purpose for it) Read Joel 2:12-15

12 "Even now," declares the LORD,
"return to me with all your heart,
with fasting and weeping and mourning."

13 Rend your heart
and not your garments.
Return to the LORD your God,
for he is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and abounding in love,
and he relents from sending calamity.

14 Who knows? He may turn and have pity
and leave behind a blessing—
grain offerings and drink offerings
for the LORD your God.

15 Blow the trumpet in Zion,
declare a holy fast, c
all a sacred assembly.

Talk about God speaking to me through his word! And then again I woke up this morning when Dan got a board up call just before 6am and I began to pray and God just kept telling me to read his word. So I started at the beginning of Joel and read until I fell asleep. Today, I am making a conscious effort to Trust God's plans for me. I need to stop worrying...it is making me sick with grief and I know God doesn't wnat that for me. I need to enjoy where I'm at and know that God will provide after this job...He always does.

I just need to remain completely positive about my job search. If one door shuts another will open. This depression is crushing me and it needs to be over. I do have some choice in the matter...not always, but today I am going to make a concious effort to do so!!!

So thank you for praying for me and continue please. But even though I am not at a successful job, I have been very successful in life. I have been married longer than 50% of the population, I have one of the most beautiful little boys in the world and our entire family has their health. Success is a perception. Dan and I have succeeded in life and we are grateful for our family and health. I think I just needed to write that down, to realize how true that statement truly is.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Thursday

Mood: Still Ho hum
Weather: Crappy

I'm not sure what the deal is lately, maybe the weather, maybe the uncertainty of my future. Who knows! But another dead end with the staffing agency in MN. My resume is so all over the place that people don't know what to do with me. I have so little consistant experience that I can't seem to find a niche. Job descriptions always have qualifications that I can't, by any stretch of the imagination, fill. So discouraging to have had all the schooling, all to have it either make me overqualified, or because I am so far removed from it that the degree and experience seems to be overlooked. Half the time I have no idea what I would like to do, and then when I do, my hopes get stomped by not fully qualifying therefore they don't even consider me. I even considered going back to school for teaching, but because there are so many teachers and so few jobs here, my Master's degree makes me not marketable. They won't hire someone with a masters (even though it isn't in education) because they would have to pay me more. So to spend the time and money in college again, just to put myself back in the same boat...doesn't look very inviting.

The thoughts of going back to school pop back in once and awhile, but in what? How would we afford it? Would I go nights, the only time I have to spend with Josiah? Or full time and get it done sooner? So much uncertainty!

My dream jobs: Wedding coordinator (full time). The other thing I have thought about is a garage sale business. Let me explain: I would come into someones house, providing all the tables, signs, price stickers, etc. and they would provide the pile of stuff that they want to sell. I would simply come in and set it up for them. I could then run the sale for people who work full time and can't attend to the sale during the week. And then I could take everything that is left to Goodwill, returning to them a receipt for tax deduction purposes. Yah, I have all these pipedreams of starting businesses, but I have no idea how to start, let alone where to get the money.

Anyway, something will eventually work itself out! Today, HR recruiter came to me and said they had a full-time position for an admin asst. here, but they need someone before Jan. which is when the maternity leave is up. Bad timing again! or good timing and it isn't something I would want to do full time.

The sun is trying to peak through, so maybe the day will get better. I do have a good TV night to look forward too :)

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

I wish, I wish....

I wish, I wish....that I could find a job that was both fulfilling and that I could stay at for more than 4 months or even a year. The economy is so bad here in MI, that I find myself longing to leave so that I can find myself a career. However, I just don't know what God's got planned for me. Does He want me to stay here working at jobs that I get to come home every night and not think about...a job that I can focus on my family in the evenings and on weekends, not worrying about stuff at the office. Is that why He has me doing these random jobs. Shoot, this is my 4th job this year, if you count the month that I was substitute teaching.

Or is the fact that I have severed ties with several friendships an indication that He is preparing me to leave? I just don't know. If I moved out of state here are the things I would miss more that I can imagine: my family (although, my brother, sister-in-law and kids are moving out of state any time now, but I don't know what I would do without my mom being able to just hop on down to help me clean or help take care of Josiah or just for a visit. This year has also been fun for family get togethers...I think we attended almost all of them, which is so much fun for Josiah to get to know his family, so I would miss out on alot of that), I would miss my dear friendship with Mindy (Ok, so the friendship obviously wouldn't end, but getting together and hanging out, doing baby stuff and having our husbands building stuff, that would be gone. She has been a huge support over the past years...a true friend that can tell it like it is and that's ok. And I can do the same with her and that's ok too. I haven't had that in many friends...so thanks Mindy), and my church family (however it has changed so much over the past 6 months. So many of the friends that I had made there have moved on, we have a new pastor (which I do like) and we just can't seem to get excited about being back in choir. I'm not sure what happened, but again, I don't know if this is God preparing us to leave the church, or is it God telling us we just need to get more involved and find our niche in the church we are at).

Ahhhhh, if only I could tell what God is trying to tell us and what He has planned for Dan and I. Shoot even Dan's friend found a company that Dan would fit right into, making furniture. I don't think there are any openings, but his friend talked Dan up to the company owner (or someone) and is going to bring him his resume :) I just talked to a scientific head hunter in the same area and sent her my resume. So who knows. I know that Dan would love to leave his job and I would love to find a job...but we are also looking in this area for both of us...and my mom has also been working diligently to find us both jobs here. So hopefully in the end we both have new good jobs...I just don't know where they will be.

Keep us in your prayers: My biggest prayer right now is that we follow what God wants us to do. And that is so hard to figure out sometimes...so pray for us. Thanks in advance!!!

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Pictures...pictures and more pictures


These pictures date back to September, but I haven't posted pictures in so long that I thought I would go crazy and post just about every picture I took. Dan's mom came to visit around the end of Sept., so most of the pictures are from her visit. We are having trouble with our camera, so many are fuzzy and many were deleted because they were just to fuzzy. We are hoping to get a cheap digital camera after Thanksgiving. But I am worried I won't get any pictures through Halloween. I will just have to take lots and lots of pictures so that at least a few will be good :) So here are the long awaited pictures!! Enjoy!


What kid doesn't love a lawn mower and better yet...what kid doesn't know how to start a lawn mower ;) hehehe






Picking Raspberries...a favorite past time for mom and Josiah. He loves to pick them and is very careful when he goes up to the plant. Fun and too cute:)

Dan stood up from the picnic table and launched his mom onto the ground. Not really launched, so much as rolled off :) Noone was hurt and she thought it was very funny!!!
Josiah had fun walking the dog...but it was a good thing that the dog didn't take off when he let go of the leash, because you know how long the attention span of a 2 year old is ;)




Grandma got Josiah a new bike and he loves it...sometimes he will sit on it to watch TV


To make Grandma's visit more memorable and just to have some fun, we made our way over to the cider mill for Cider and Donuts. What a fun morning! But Josiah sure was tired and ready for a nap when we got home.


An addiction to DaDoo's (or Donuts), just like his mom













Go Green! Go White!



Just laying around the house!


Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Beauty Shop

My mom and I played beauty shop this weekend. I really hated the last hair cut that I got and I have been wanted to color my hair. So I had her cut it on Saturday morning. I will have to post pictures later, but it is shorter than I have had in a long time. It is about 2 inches up off my shoulders and about a 2 inch layer in the back and a slight layer in the front. It is so easy to do and I think the cut itself should be easier to replicate. I am so glad that I let my mom cut my hair. I have been going to the salon for several years now...ever since I started getting it cut shorter and with layers. But I am not sure why, really. I definitely like going to the salon and getting pampered a little, but I don't like the cost for a simple hair cut. $35 is a lot to spend on just getting your hair cut. So I am glad that I thought to have her fix my hair...it was awful before. Then after she cut my hair, I cut her hair. The same hair cut I have been giving her for years :) with a new twist. I gave her layers for the first time ever. I had never given anyone layers (well except Dan a couple of times, but that doesn't count). I styled it with a round brush and I think she liked it :)
I had been thinking about getting my hair colored for some time now, but again it costs so much money...money that I just don't have. My mom had mentioned just doing a box color, but I was nervous that I wouldn't like the color or whatever. But the same can be said for going to the salon. You never get quite what you are picturing, so why spend the extra money. So on Sunday, while Bob took Josiah for a walk and chased squirrels, mom and I went to Kmart and bought hair coloring stuff. I ended up getting a box that had both the coloring and the highlights and for a fraction of the cost. And guess what: I loved it and still love it. It is auburn and just the color I had imagined. Unbelievable. However, after we did the over all color and I liked it so much, I decided to hold off on the highlights. I just didn't want to ruin a good thing.
Then after my hair was all colored and cut and I felt beautiful :) My mom decided she was going to brave a new look and she wanted me to do the cut. She decided she was going to go with a face framed look, so that the hair wouldn't hang in her face when she leaned forward. Yikes (for me doing the cutting that is :) But I think it went well. She could tell me with every cut, if it was what she wanted, which you can't really do at a salon. You tell them what you want and hope they interpret your instructions correctly. In the end I think it looked even better than just layers in the back, because it blended all the way around nicely. And after two days she still likes it....so overall a great day in the Beauty Shop :)

Weekend, Cont'd

Where was I...oh yah, the early nap that backfired. However he did wake up just in time to ride with Dawn to the pool party. So that part was good, but he didn't take a long enough nap and woke up a little cranky still. Oh well, such is life right!

The Pool Party: Ok, so this is venting...but Dad and Kathie please know I/we did have fun at the pool party and he loved being in the water, as I knew he would. With that said, I probably will not take him swimming alone again until he can go off on his own. Dan didn't go with us, so it was just me to take care of Josiah, who wanted in and out of the pool. He doesn't understand walk vs. run...so I constantly had to be right on him even when I wasn't holding him (which wasn't very often), but it was constant and even when I was on with him all the time, he still managed to fall and hit his head (lots of snuggle time...probably the best part. Is that bad to love the snuggle time a fall brings). Then the food was on the pool deck with a rope blocking people off from the pool. Does a rope prevent a 2 year old from crossing it: NO. So I had to constantly be on top of him with the food on deck and he didn't want to sit on my lap to eat snacks...so more fighting. In the pool he wouldn't go in his little boat thing that would give him and myself independence...to many kids and the boat didn't really hold him up well, so I guess I can understand that. So I held him the entire time. Then we had dinner and thank goodness they had a high chair, because that would not have been fun with him wanting to be on the go constantly. I set him up at the table where several people were sitting with him, but by the time I got back out to the table, he was all by himself, everyone had switched tables. Great! I have spent the entire time in the pool pretty much by myself with Josiah and now we get to eat by ourselves. By this time I was getting a little cranky. Thank goodness, Kathie and her sister, Stephi came and sat with us and I got to have some adult conversation :). OK, now I am making this all out to be terrible..it was NOT terrible. I had fun. Josiah had fun. I was just ready to be done with the constant carrying and watching and being by myself at a family function. So lesson learned: don't go to a pool alone with Josiah until he can take care of himself.

We really did have fun, and a good weekend overall...I was just ready to go home too :) I was ready for Dan to take care of Josiah. I was ready for Josiah to stop screaming over every little thing that didn't go his way. The tantrums continue to escalate :(

Then on Sunday we went to the kids museum where Josiah could just get down and run around. He loved the music part of the museum and sitting in the tractor. But that trip didn't last very long...no attention span. However, as we were leaving and he realized that we were leaving, yet another tantrum...not to big, but crying none-the-less. This is when we got into the car and were getting ready to head out of town when I realized that the DVD player's (yep we have two), didn't work. NOT GOOD! I think the cords are bad, but who knows....either way, neither would work and it was a long trip home. He would play, look at a book for 5 minutes and then cry out demanding the DVD player to play a movie. One of them would play the sound, so I just let the Lion King play through the movie...at least we could listen to the music and what not.

So, when I got home, I was ready to just veg...unfortunately the laundry (that my mom so kindly did and folded) doesn't get put away itself, so I put all that away and when 8:00pm roled around and my TV shows started, I handed the rains over to Dan and we were able to get Josiah into bed pretty early. Josiah didn't want me to take him to bed anyway! Stinker! But I didn't care, as long as he went to bed.

It has been so long since I have been able to blog that I have forgotten how to come to a point much quicker than I used to be able too. So bare with me for a time until I get readjusted.

Monday, October 08, 2007

Our Weekend

We had an ok and very busy weekend. Josiah and I visited all of my parents in one trip..always handy :) We went to my mom's to stay on Friday night. Great trip in the car with Josiah...the DVD player worked the whole way (it has been on the fritz and this isn't always the case). So the trip was uneventful. He didn't make it to bed until 9:30pm...not to late, but we woke him up at 7:00 and apparently that was the wrong thing to do. In my mind if he got up earlier, he would take an earlier nap and we could leave for the pool partier with my dad earlier. Boy was I wrong. He was so very crabby from the second he woke up. Mostly directed at me. I guess I should have just left him with my mom and Bob for alittle while and maybe he wouldn't have been such a crab, but we will never really know. So many tantrums this weekend and over silly stuff, but I guess that is what makes them tantrums. So my theory that he would take an early nap...not so much. We tried to put him down early, because he was yawning and rubbing his eyes, but he just wouldn't go to sleep. Bob ended up laying next to the pack and play until Josiah fell asleep.
Will continue the saga tomorrow...I ran out of time

Thursday, October 04, 2007

I can blog again!!

It has been so very long since I was able to blog during the day...lunch hour or breaks! But I just started a new job today and I have full access to all the stuff I have been missing for so long. Many of you probably gave up on checking my blog, but many of you have bloglines, so hopefully you will get a chance to check in every once and a while.

Where to begin on an update and have it be short enough for people to glance through and get the gist. One of the last times I actually blogged about me, I was working at a computer helpdesk...stressful and not much fun! I left that job, substitute taught for a month and then got hired in at a workman's comp place, working in administrative services...or better yet the mail room. That was a great job, but paid crap. I actually did a good job and was given responsiblities early on and excelled. The job didn't have much more room to grow in and they were on a hiring freeze. So hurry up and wait for the temps to get hired on. They wanted to hire us temps, but the union they are part of wouldn't let them. Many changes were about to happen and they weren't sure how many people it was going to take when the changes had taken place...so I started looking for another job. A couple of weeks ago, when they announced at AF that they were definitely going to stick with temps, I went to a temp agencies website to check out other temp jobs. I got the call on Monday that I got another temp position as an administrative assistant to the executives of a fast growing company and 3 days later here I am. But the best part: $5 more an hour :) Huge! And through the holidays...this couldn't have come at a better time. The bummer is that it is definitely a temp position, I am filling in for someones maternity leave. So far everyone is great and I think I will fit in good here. I sure hope so. Hopefully when this job ends, another position within the company will become available, that is my hope.

Enough about me: Dan is doing well, but hoping to make a career change. He has been with his company for 10 years now and they gave him no recognition....no bonus, no gift certificate, not even a card. He doesn't get anymore vacation, 2 weeks a year and that is the most he will ever have. They treat him terribly there, actually they treat everyone terribly. That is the company that I got let go from because I bought smoky links instead of Bob Evans Sausage for a company breakfast. Never tick the owners wife off...lessoned learned. Better yet, never work for a family owned business again.

I will have to come back and give an update on Josiah...but he is doing great and learning lots of little words! To fun!