Tomorrow is the big day..

I am filled with so many emotions...but mostly scared to death right now. I cry even as I write this, in fact I cry all the time. It's like there is a continuous supply of tears...I just can't wait until they are tears of joy instead of tears of fear. Knowing the tomorrow is the big day is making today even harder, it makes the reality of it much more real. For so long it could be today or tomorrow, but now I know that it is definately tomorrow, no matter what.

I am scared of all things unknown and know that I just need to hand it over to God...but still I am scared. Dan has been a rock through these last few days and he keeps reassuring me of the things I doubt. But all this time that I keep thinking that I want it over (the pregnancy part), now I wish I could just keep him safe and warm inside for a little while longer:) I think I just need to call Katie or Jody and have them tell me how wonderful it is to have a baby...because right now I am not feeling the excitement (it comes and goes I think).

So that is how I am feeling at 11:50am today! If I come back in a couple of hours it may have changed and it may not have changed, but it doesn't change the fact that in less than 48 hours I will have a baby boy in my arms and our lives will have changed overnight.

Thank you all for your prayers and continued prayers as the next couple of days will be when we need them the most. God has been so good to us this far, I know He will carry us through and still be carrying us when we get to the other side (see my emotions have already changed a little and I am not even done typing this post:)

Talk to you all on the flip side:)

3 Days and Counting...

We went to the dr. this morning and had an ultrasound and a non-stress test and found that everything looks good. He is just as comfortable as he could be. Somebody said it was like a nice little condominium in there..and I think they are right...it is just toooo comfortable in there for him.

I am scheduled to be induced on Thursday morning at 8:00am...so unless he comes earlier we will have a baby in our arms in 3 days. A December baby...hadn't even crossed my mind that I would go late enough to have a December baby, but then again he still could come in the next two days. I am sure my dad is rooting for tomorrow, that is his birthday:)

So all is well here and all of the indoor projects have been crossed off our lists and we are just trying to be patient as the big day draws nearer!!

4 Days and Counting...

Thursday: We had a wonderful Thanksgiving at Mike and Mindy's though!! Awesome food and great fellowship. Dan and I were so excited that they had two of our all time favorite foods..Crab dip and corn pudding (also known as corn bake, which we would love the recipe for...I think it was a little different than the one we make...much sweeter and we couldn't quite figure out what made it so sweet and yummy). It was nice to just relax that day and not feel guilty that I wasn't up helping cook or clean up!! Overall a great Thanksgiving Day!!

Friday: Believe it or not...Dan and I made it in shopping on Black Friday! We have not missed a single Black Friday since we got married and gosh darnet, we weren't going to miss it this year. I think we went to about 4 stores. We were to Best Buy at about 6:30am (so everything was gone already) and home by 9:30am. We are very efficient shoppers and have it mastered. So we ended up with some fun things...we generally say that this is our Christmas gift to each other!! Gotta love the sales!

Saturday: Well we had our first trip to the hospital yesterday. I was pretty sure I wasn't in labor, but I was having severe pains in my lower abdomen that just wouldn't let up. So I called the on call Dr and they suggested that I go in to get checked out since it was abnormal pain. Dan and I packed up the car and headed off to the hospital where we got hooked up to monitors and little Gil got to demonstrate his ability to swim in utero:) The sounds that were being made when he was moving around were kind of swishing like sounds...which made it sound like he was doing laps:) Who knows maybe he is just preparing for the Olympics in 2020!!!

They never did figure out what was wrong and the pain went away before we even left the hospital..go figure...that is always how it goes for me!! But they did for tell me I could up my vicodin dosage, so now it is working properly. I have very little pain now, which is sooo great!! Makes it ok that I might not deliver until Thursday..in fact it makes me want him to wait until Thursday, so that my Dr will be the one delivering him.

Sunday: The day to rest!! And I plan to do just that. I am going to work on some crocheting in front of the TV watching old movies and feeling warm and cozy with a fire blazing in the wood stove. So I am off to relax.

Crazy Pregnant Dreams

Dream #1: So I dreamt that the baby kicked so high that he lifted the skin on my belly up...like he was in a kangaroo pouch. I looked down and could see inside and he was smiling!! That was very weird...there was a line acrossed my belly, just under my boobs that would just life up. So then I got this idea in my mind that I could take him out, but also knew I shouldn't. So I snuck away into a room by myself and took him out and held him...at least I thought it was a boy until I looked down and saw that it was a girl dressed in pink (this was inspired because Dan had told me he had been dreaming that we were going to have a girl and he was nervous about that). The umbilical cord was still attached...so weird. Then I put her back and closed up the flap. It was great to hold the baby though!!

Dream#2: I was at my baby shower and apparently Kari Marciniak was good friends with Paris Hilton and Nicole Ritchie (they were fueding in my dream..apparently I had been reading to many People magazines around the time I had this dream). We were at a the house of a friend from 6th grade (Sarah Dittenbir) for the shower and we were hanging out on the front porch, Then they told me they had a big surprise for me and 2 guys in long fur coats and big hats hiding their faces walked up onto the lawn. They dropped their coats and it was Bon Jovi. Apparently Paris Hilton and Nicole Ritchie were good friends with him and they got him to come to my baby shower...it was soooo awsome. I think I woke up happy that day:)

Has anyone had any good dreams lately....pregnant or not:)

One last belly picture:)

Isn't this just adorable! My good friend Christy Guest is an awsome photographer in Midland. We grew up together practically. We met in 6th grade because our teacher gave her and another good friend, Sarah, extra credit to be nice to me. I didn't find this out until high school...but pretty funny story though. And it worked...we have been friends ever since:) This picture was taken at my final baby shower on Nov. 6th!

9 Days and Counting

I went to the doctor yesterday and found that nothing has changed and that I just need to keep waiting (which brought on a flood of tears of course, no one at this point in their pregnancy likes to hear that they just have to keep waiting). However that is the best thing for the baby if he decides to make his appearance when he is good and ready. However, if he doesn't decide to come on his own, the doc agreed to induce me a week from Thursday (Dec. 1st). So there is a light at the end of the tunnel (if only "Gil" would go towards it sooner;) On a positive note: if "Gil" decides to take his time and wait until Dec. 1st, my doc will get to deliver me otherwise another doc will do the delivery, so now I am kind of hoping he decides to take his time:) That is the feeling at the moment...and is subject to change at any given moment.

There were many tears shed to get to this emotionally stable point, but I feel so much better having that end date!!! I was actually able to sleep much more soundly last night, which all of you know I love to do. And I am making plans for the week ahead. Dan and I are very excited that our good friends Mindy and Mike invited us over for Thanksgiving dinner...that gives me something to definitely look forward to (she said they made 6 pies...well count me in for eating one of those pies:) hehehe And then since my doc gave me a prescription for Vicadin...I plan on making our annual shopping trip on the day after Thanksgiving. Probably won't do much, but at least we might get a few good buys:)


My next doc apt is schedule for next Monday where they will do an ultrasound and a non-stress test and check me again to see if there has been any progress. I will keep you posted!!!

So as of right now the countdown beings!!! Only 9 DAYS to go for sure:)

The Family Pre-baby

Dr. Visit

I went to the doctor yesterday and he told me that things were progressing nicely. I am 2 cm dilated and 50% effaced. I was sooo worried that I would go to the dr. apt and he would tell me that nothing is going on and it might be another 2 weeks:P Still don't know how long it will take but he stripped my membrane in hopes that it would speed things along. So now, just like for the past 2 weeks, I sit and wait for the contractions that they tell me I will undoubtedly feel and know for certain that I am in active labor. I woke this morning and the back pain that has plagued me for the past 2-3 weeks was lessened only to be replaced by pressure in the groin (which has been there for quite some time, it just intensified over night). So we are all hoping that this little guy decides to make his appearance soon. My house is clean, my bags are packed and we are just "patiently" awaiting this new and exciting adventure that Dan and I are about to embark upon. Just writing that makes me excited:) I can't wait!!!!

Prayer of One Voice

This is something our church prints in the bulletin every Sunday...and this one spoke to me so I thought I would post it:

Eternal God,
you bless us with gifts that are uniquely our own.
We have b een given so much,
yet our talkents seem so small to us.
Help us shake off fear
and boldly put our talents to use,
that they may be a blessing to a world in need of your blessings.
In Christ's name we pray. Amen

My First Post

This is so new and foreign to me that I am not sure where to start. First of all, as you can see from my photo taken almost 4 weeks ago, I am very, very, very pregnant and about to pop at any time....so as you can imagine the only thing I think about at every waking hour is how and when we will get to meet the new addition (some refer to as Gilgamesh) to our family. Therefore all of my thoughts and energy are focused on this little guy, as they should be, and I wouldn't want it any other way.

My husband, Dan, and I have been truly blessed throughout this pregnancy and are continuously amazed how God has provided for us emotionally, spiritually and financially. Never has there been a point in our lives when the rewards of tithing have been so evident. When we began to tithe about 4 years ago, we didn't realize how faithful God was going to be...not that we doubted, it is just that we couldn't have imagined how secure He could make us feel. One of my biggest fears of parenthood was that we wouldn't be able to provide financially for our children. Not only has God provided for us, but he has also allowed me to stay at home for at least 4-6 months with the baby, something I had only been able to dream of doing. God is good...All the time!! (Dan and I have said that alot lately:)

Didn't think I would be talking about that in my first blog, but it just came to me to write, so I wrote!!! Let's see what else is there to say: we have two cats (Toonses and Little Cat) and a dog (Buster). We have no idea how they will greet the new baby, but we can only pray that they completely ignore the little guy. I will keep you posted as that drama unfolds....and I am sure you will all wait with baited breath:)

Well I think that is all for now! The doctor told me last Thursday that he thought I would have this baby within the next week...somehow I think that is a cruel joke that all doctors play on pregnant women to give them hope to keep perservering through the toughest part of pregnancy. We will just have to be patient and wait and see. I am sure that "Gil" will make his appearance when he is good and ready:) I will do my best to keep everyone posted!!!