A Rough Couple of Weeks

As many of you know already, I was "let go" from my marketing job on October 26th. Long story and a really crappy thing that they did. Dan had been working at this same company for 9 years and they kick me out on my ass because the wife of the owner is a selfish person who always gets her way, no matter who it hurts in the process. And she so lovingly taught her daughter all of her devious, selfish ways and she too always gets as she wishes no matter who gets hurt in the process. I was the second person in 1 month that got fired because we didn't "mesh" as they put it with the wife and daughter of the owner fo the company. Fair? Hardly! But that is the way of small, family owned business where they get their employees to sign a contract that says they are "at will" employees. What does that mean? It means that the company owner can fire anyone for any reason at any time...which means that they can actually fire you because you don't "mesh" with the bosses wife. I still can't believe it! They didn't even try to work things out because she didn't want to. Jeff simply called me into his office on Thursday morning, told me it wasn't working out and asked me to pack up quickly and leave quietly. Well I packed up fairly quickly, but I didn't leave to quietly. I walked around with tears falling telling everyone that they just fired me. They all new why. They all know that Linda is not a person to be messed with. I just learned that the hard way and a little to late.

Ok, enough ranting for the moment. Dan and I have been here before. And I know we will make it this time. But in the mean time, it is an emotional roller coaster. Not knowing what I will do next or where our next pay check will come from. The job search process is always emotional. What will I do this time? What do I qualify for? Do I have skills that will transfer? Will anyone hire someone with a track record like I have? So much unknown, so little self confidence in my abilities and my ability to make it work in a work environment. I fear the unknown and dread subsitute teaching. I say we have been here before, only this time we have alittle life that we have to be concerned about. It's not just Dan and I anymore. And our new day care. We finally found a day care that we trust and love. We truly enjoy taking Josiah to Kim and Steve's. They make it ok for me to work. I know that he has fun and that he is having a good time. And I don't want to lose our spot at the day care...so I am going to continue to try and work at least 3 days a week to assure that we hold our spot. They have been so wonderful through this tough time. Allowing us to not bring him but one day last week and 5 days this week.

Ups and downs! I am ready to have some steady emotional ground, but I have a feeling that it may be a few weeks or months before I find my footing. Some days are good, some bad, but overall the shining point is my husband and son. They keep me smiling! Having a happy little guy greeting me every morning and giving me kisses when I get home, keep me from getting to down:) What a fun little guy! God has truly blessed us with him!